I’m about to graduate this coming spring, so I’ve been reflecting a lot on my time at Berklee lately. I have been in Crepusculum Choir since my first year at Berklee, and it has been one of the most important parts of my entire college experience. Choir has been a big part of my life from elementary school to the present. Berklee is more well-known for jazz and contemporary music than classical music, so one of the coolest things about Crepusculum for us is that it gives us the opportunity to keep being “choir kids” and continue singing choral music. For me, it also means the chance to sing in a choir that has a very professional sound – something I’ve wanted to experience for years.
When I was in high school, my choir was something that anyone could join, and most people just did it to get their arts credits. However, there was always a core group of us who actually wanted to be there, and wanted to put in the effort to sound the best we could for our performances. Unfortunately, we were always heavily outnumbered by everyone else that didn’t want to be there and put in minimal effort, and it was always disappointing. Luckily, I had some extraordinary choral experiences outside my school, thanks to an incredible all-girls choir and a few performances in a large choir directed by the one and only Eric Whitacre. Those experiences showed me just how amazing singing in a choir could be, and I wanted to find that again in college.
There’s something magical about, first, singing with other people who really want to be there and love the music, but also the deep connection we have as a group when we sing a piece – breathing together, creating beautiful sounds and music together – there’s really nothing like it. We sang Whitacre’s “Alleluia” in my first year, and when I heard the whole choir sing it together for the first time in rehearsal, I knew that I had finally heard the sound I’d been waiting for. When we performed at my first Marriott concert, I knew that I had finally found the kind of choir that I’d been hoping for, because I felt that indescribable magic feeling.
Obviously, it hasn’t all been perfect over the years. I experienced the complexities of several leadership changes, and we’ve had our occasional tough moments, but I wouldn’t trade my experience in this group for anything. I know it’s pretty early to get sappy about this kind of thing since I’m not graduating for 7 more months, but reflecting has made me think about this a lot. I don’t know if I’ll have the chance to be in a choir once I leave college, so I’m trying to live in the moment for our rehearsals and performances as much as possible. This group has been and will always be so special to me, and I will treasure this magic feeling forever.